Hey all! Been a while. Obviously I'm in the NGUAC as of right now, awaiting judging. But in the meantime, I have something of an... important thing to talk about.
Trigger warning: Depression, anxiety, and suicide.
I'm not going to write out everything again; I've already talked about what's been going on the last couple months in this video, so if you want to get an understanding of all that's happened, go watch that. But in summary of that half hour video, I began a steady descent into a deep depression the likes of which I've not experienced before, and hope I never experience again. I had panic attacks at a very regular pace, with barely any moments of peace. Even got close to actually killing myself more times than I'm willing to admit, even in that video.
To call the last few months rough would be an understatement. I would have probably posted quite a bit more music if I hadn't fallen into this deep depression. The idea of making music seemed impossible for a time and I quite honestly didn't find joy in almost anything. Various days I went by not even going into my studio, let alone playing guitar or recording any music. New Dawn was something I'm surprised I finished enough to put out, because it was born out of the lowest lows I could ever experience. It was tough, but I'm still here, and still kicking.
I don't really have anything else to add. Just remember to look after your friends. You don't know what they're going through.
All the best and take care!
~Zach (AlphaStorm)